The Not Well Thought Talk

 

That Day

It was in 2016 April at the MITC - Moolya Internal Testing Conference.  I was a Moolya employee then and it was a conference for Moolyans by Moolyans.  I went up to the stage and shared few thoughts of me, then.  Today, when I look at what I spoke, it looks to me as not a talk that I should be doing.

The Talk

I see, my thoughts were not mindful when I spoke that day, and I was blinded.  Yeah, blinded.  This is one of the talks which I keep as an example; so that I do not share my thoughts and talk like this.  Today when I look at me of that day, I look wrong and not sound.  I question myself, "Is that me? Ah! How bad!"

Not Thoughtful, Why?

I see it is not thoughtful for these reasons:

1. It did not reflect the awareness I have on the subject and practice
2. I sent an incorrect message with my short talk for young people who were at the conference
• I should have shared how to look at it than saying what has to be done ignoring the other
• Ignoring the one and doing other is not a beneficial approach in any means
3. I'm a person and with the role who will  influence people in the direction, the work, approach, and delivery
• How can I do this as a leader?
• But a leader will also fail and a leader encounters failures often and frequently
• Leaders deal with the failures than with success often and continue what they have to do
• I failed in my thoughts and talk, that day!

None spoke or shared anything about it.  I'm not sure why.  I myself see it is not right.  Could be they would have received in the intent what I wanted to share.  But, what did I say and how, that's not right.  Ravisuriya, himself cannot take it today and acknowledges it.

What I do today!

I take my time and think before I see an opportunity or when asked to respond.  It is not that I did not think earlier prior to responding.  That day, I did not see how it will be received and interpreted.  

Today for first, I will test if I can receive and acknowledge what I'm communicating.  If this fails, I will pause and think of a better way to share and communicate.  Before sharing, I try to make sure that I have not tampered with the intent of my words and thoughts.  Can this be done each time?  I'm making a practice that I articulate and persuade better and with the right intent.

This is one of the very essential learning I have made from MITC 2016.  Thanks, Moolya and Moolyans for giving me this reflecting and retrospective learning.